I know you probably don't care about this problem of mine but the heck. I really want to pour this heavy feelings that weighted on my mind ;;w;; Yeah and as I already said 'whether my feelings for him were still here or not' but in reality whenever he texted me I became so, sooo happy despite what subject we are talking or how long it took for him to reply my text back. This is unfair, really. Whenever I say my feelings to him in sentence like, "hey, I might fell for you more" when he did something unbelievably cute to me, he would always, like every time, says "ah please don't give people false hope with your words." What. WHAAAAAT???!! I WAS SINCERE WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT WHY CAN'T YOU TELL OMG HOW DENSE ARE YOU are the words I really want to say to him, with my own voice in front of his face, not by texting him. Alas, I can't do that cause yes, he lives in another city. Now I sounded really desperate.
You know what guys, I don't feel like I wanna love anybody now. You guys must be surprised when you read this (or not, idk) but lately I don't feel so certain about my own feelings. Well as you all probably know I am now currently falling for a boy who lived in another city, who's also my close friend and a friend with the same taste in everything. But ah, because he's frequently show up and gone from texting me I began to ponder whether my feelings for him were still here in my heart or not.
I know you probably don't care about this problem of mine but the heck. I really want to pour this heavy feelings that weighted on my mind ;;w;; Yeah and as I already said 'whether my feelings for him were still here or not' but in reality whenever he texted me I became so, sooo happy despite what subject we are talking or how long it took for him to reply my text back. This is unfair, really. Whenever I say my feelings to him in sentence like, "hey, I might fell for you more" when he did something unbelievably cute to me, he would always, like every time, says "ah please don't give people false hope with your words." What. WHAAAAAT???!! I WAS SINCERE WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT WHY CAN'T YOU TELL OMG HOW DENSE ARE YOU are the words I really want to say to him, with my own voice in front of his face, not by texting him. Alas, I can't do that cause yes, he lives in another city. Now I sounded really desperate.
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Yeah, I was dreaming something which I considered reaaallly unexpected. This is because I was dreaming about being the girlfriend of------------------ my best friend. Well no, actually being a lover of your own best friend is a common thing but still... and I am not in love with him or whatsoever--
Anyway, here's the story of my dream. If I remembered correctly, in my dream I was at school and the teacher was giving some assignment to be done in partner. And so we drew some papers and it turns out that I was paired with my best friend. ... Tbh in my dream for some reason I feel like I really, REALLY liked him and I did think that this assignment is a way to get more and more closer to him. And something is wrong here; this year we are not in the same class. Well dreams can't be controlled so the hell with the reality. So the assignment was to search and collect some plants which are in a list that was given by the teacher. The plants varies from the ones we would easily find in school yard to the ones we must get in mountains and beaches--- or such. Yeah so he and I began to search the entire school yard for the easiest plant and while we were searching for it somehow I eagerly making moves towards him as if it is telling him to get to know my feelings. ... And the result was, without saying 'I like you' or such, he held my hand and he stared at me lovingly. OMG I STILL REMEMBERED THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE LOOKED AT ME IN MY DREAM. It's the look of 'Yes, I know your feelings and I am feeling the same way too.' //I do wish this happens with me in real life; not with him but with my crush in another city// I felt really, REALLY happy when he stared at me like that, even my sleeping body feeling the tenderness of his eyes. Plus, he has the color of light brown as his eyes so this made me melt more. His eyes color is like this girl's: Yep, that picture is literally what I was doing earlier. Ahh my body is all stiff---
Finally, after went through all the hassle to make this blog (because I'm not used to this kind of blogs), I managed to publish this blog //cries tears of joy ... Tbh I don't know what I want to write in my first entry but... I guess I'll tell you the reason my I made this blog. Actually, I've never intended to make a blog here. But then my school teacher gave us an assignment to make a blog here, so I made one eventually. It was really tiring to edit here and there on this blog... Seriously. If the teacher hadn't told us to make one here, surely I wouldn't make one. Even though it was really tiresome to make this blog, but I have to admit this blog is pretty, uh, what's it called--- oh, handy. Well yeah, unlike blogspot and other blogs in the same genre this website provides more conveniences for its users. For example the drag-and-drop tools. Well even though it's more convinience than other blogs but I'd prefer Tumblr over this one because of its simplicity. Ah but that doesn't mean I hate this blog. No, of course not. Well, after this first entry, I guess I'll be posting about reviews that I have done in my old blogs. Surely that adds up the number of posts I made, hehe. Well, see you later again! o/ |
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